WhiteGirl!

Linda and Erica are having lunch at an Applebee’s in central El Pas. Linda gives off the impression of a white female and Erica looks more Hispanic of the two.

Hostess:  Your booth is this way ladies please follow me.

She sits them in their booth.

Hostess: Your waiter will be with you ladies shortly.

Linda: So have you been here before?

Erica: No, but my husband has and he said that she shrimp bowl was very good. So I think I’m going to try that. What about you?

Linda: Uhm I don’t know girl, this all looks so good I think Imma just have me the steak with some fries!

Erica: Girl I wish I can eat like you!

Linda: No girl I be wanting hips like you!

An African American waitress see’s the two ladies and turns around quickly and tells Lupe to go and take their order.

Lupe walks to the table and begins the conversation only talking with Erica.

Lupe: hola mi nombre es Lupe y yo seré su camarera para hoy. ¿Qué puedo empezar con señora?

Erica: hola. Me gustaría empezar con un poco de agua y también me gustaría probar el plato de camarones.

Lupe: bueno. y ¿cuál sería su amigo como a fin de

Erica: que quiere probar su carne y..

She asks Linda what she would like to drink

Linda: A Dr. Pepper please.

Lupe takes the menu’s from both of them and says she’ll be right out with their order.

Linda: Was it me or was that waitress only talking to and in Spanish?

Erica: I have no idea, I didn’t really notice.

Linda: Hmm maybe I’m just imagining things.

Erica: So did you hear?

Linda: Hear what?

Erica: I’m going to get promoted and I might finally have my own office!

Linda: aah I’m so excited for you!

Gets up and runs around the table to give Erica a big hug.

Erica: thank you girl! Finally after eight years of working on the lower floor I finally get to move and be up on the same floor as you!

Linda: We gonna have sooo much fun girl!.

Lupe comes back to the table with their drinks and sets them on the table

Lupe: la comida será en breve

But only talking to Linda.

Erica: thank you!

Lupe gives a fake snobby smile and walks away.

Linda: okay maybe now I notice what you mean..

Erica: Nah I was over exaggerating. Just let it go.

Linda: so when will you be moving up?

Erica: maybe within three weeks! That’s if I get promoted

Lupe comes to the table with their food and serves it but still doesn’t pay no attention to Erica.

Erica: thank you it looks great.

Lupe: Te nada.

Lupe walks away

Linda and Erica finish enjoying their food and Lupe comes back to gives the check to Linda.

Erica tells Linda

Erica: I’ll pay up fronts so you can go and get the car.

Erica walks up to Lupe at the front desk gives her the money and only leaves her a 50 cent tip and before walking out the door says..

Erica: Muchas gracias. La comida estuvo muy buena, se lo agradesco.

Erica gives her a smerk and walks out the restaurant.

The lies

                After being lied to so many times, it’s hard to believe anyone who claims to be telling you the truth. I have been through a rough 17 years. Not every day was easy, but then again not every day was hard. I’ve had a life that has shown me the ugliest people and personalities. There are many people that smile to your face, but what are even worse than a fake smile are their lies. It hurts to know when friends are lying to you, but I know it KILLS to find out that a family member is lying to you. Faithfulness is not something that I can say really runs through my family. Well I know for a fact it really doesn’t run through my parents. Parents are always telling their children its bad to lie, when in reality that is all they do their children. Now granted I know there are some good parents out there, and I’m not saying that my parents are bad parents just they aren’t the most honest people.

                 “Where did the police men take mommy yesterday Dad?” I remember asking my dad this at the age of five. I was sitting in the front seat while my two sisters, Chasity and Amber were sitting in the back seat. “The cops took Mommy away because I called the cops on her.” My dad had said to me in a mean stern tone looking ahead at the road. “Why? When is she coming back?” Questions were coming left and right from me and my sisters toward my dad. He had lowered the volume down and pulled the car over in the parking lot of a bank. He turned and looked at me then my sisters and just replied with “Where do I HATE being touched?” We all answered “In the face”, and he said “That’s right and I know you three heard and saw us fighting. Your mom had lost and picked up the phone and threw it at me and it hit me in the face”, as he was saying this he was taking off his sunglasses and we saw a huge scratch on his forehead and on his nose. He continued saying “I had called the police to come arrest her, and she got mad and she started attacking me and hitting me, so I got extremely upset and picked her up and threw her across the room and she almost flew out the window”. We all three just sat in the car in silence and I was worried so I began to cry and shortly after so did my sisters.

                We had been used to them fighting and all the violence in the house, just they have never had called the police on each other or told us about a fight, and for us being that young and for my dad to tell us that really took a shock on us. We all started panicking and asking where was out mom, is she okay, is she alive!! My dad had calmed us all down and told us she was jail for being bad. We weren’t really that use to not being without our mom. My dad had got annoyed with us crying and he took us home and left us there while we cried and cried. My sister Chasity had said “I don’t believe that’s what happened. Mommy had always told us we can only hit someone if they hit us”! Me and Amber didn’t know what to say so we just stayed crying.

                The next day my mom was home. When she had got home she had hugged us and cried with us in her arms and told us that she was sorry for leaving us. Chasity had asked where had my mom gone and my mom gave her a real short answer that she went with a friend for a couple of days. Had she just lied to our face, or was dad lying to us? We were confused. When she was talking to us I asked “Mommy do you still love daddy even though he hits you and us”? She said yes she had still love daddy because he is our dad. She had said that he gets a little mad at times and doesn’t mean to take it out on anyone. We said that as long as they both are happy then we are happy with them.

                Two days later we got to see our dad and we asked if he was happy with mom and he told us "I am happy with your mom”! We had just left it at that.

My dad was in the Navy and later that day they were having a party at work for all of him and the people he worked with on their ship. That night my mom didn’t go because she working and Chasity had to stay with my uncle. At the party Amber and I meet a lot of my dad’s cool friends. There was one person that had stood out to us though; it was my dad’s co-worker. She was very pretty and my dad had took us to her house after and the party and left us there so we can play with her kids. They had gone out I guess but the next day me and Amber had woken up and we noticed we were still at Emily’s house. We got up and ate breakfast with her kids and waited for daddy to come downstairs and take us home.

We never thought it was so serious that we had to tell mom right away and we had gotten home before she had gotten home for work. We were young and didn’t really know that it was bad that we stayed there or the fact that my dad had slept in the same room as her.

My mom had worked at Office Depot. She had met a lot of new people and was happy with where she was working. She would always take us during the day when she wasn’t working (she worked night shifts) and her co-workers had loved all three of us. One of mommy’s workers had always been real nice to us. Every time we went my mom, they would talk forever while we ran around the store. His name was Oscar. He was very tall with a nice smile and had green eyes. He spoke very fluent Spanish and we had noticed that my mom had been hanging around him more because she started talking with Spanish with us a lot more even though my dad didn’t want us talking it that much. Mom just  told us not to talk Spanish in front of daddy and if we did he was going to spank us and we didn’t want to so we never did.

My mom would always take us out to go eat lunch with Oscar. One time after we ate he had taken us to some park and at the park I saw my mom kiss him. We had thought it was nothing bad because we knew they were friends so we never said anything.

Both my parents kept seeing their secret lovers in front of us but we had never said anything because every time both my parents kept seeing their secret lovers in front of us but we had never said anything because every time we had gone with him and they were going to be with them, they would give us their mp3 so that way we would keep ourselves busy. They each had their own and they both toke them everywhere they went! It’s like at times it was necessary to have it their hands before grabbing us and putting us in the car.

Eventually they ended up finding out about each other’s lovers and they started to fight a lot and my mom was always getting beat up bad by my dad. They still insisted to lie to us and pretend as if they were a happy couple. After a while the game got tiring for both of them and they ended up just separating.

In the end I just realized it’s not good to cheat, lie, hit others or to make others suffer. I just wish my parents would have learned this before they scarred my sister’s and I.  

I Miss You Papa

Poem

When I lost you,

I swear I lost my lost my life too.

Yes I know you fly up above,

High in the sky with the white doves.

I remember our heart to heart talks,

Will never forget our long walks.

You were the Dad I never head,

Papa when God called you it hurt so bad.

To hold your hand when your machine powered down,

I swear I’ll never forget all 11 of our frowns.

Every day I think “Are you proud of me”?

But at most times I say “You are the angel I want to see.”

At a game or meet I look up,

And picture you standing there,

You were more than my fan,

Papa you were my number one answered prayer.

I’ll never forget your smile,

Your grey and white hair,

Your chilled out style,

And how you never cared if people starred.

 You were taken from me three years ago,

But pa my love for you was never hard to show.

You taught me to be strong,

And that’s what gave us our tight bond.

Before I go to sleep,

I always say,

“If you were here,

I know I’d be a different and better person.”

Your more than a memory,

You were someone who was very dear to me.

If I could see you one more time,

I would cherish every second that flew by.

11.27.41 – 11.06.08

Santiago Cordero Jr

Fear - Ghost

Ever felt the feeling of a ghost still present in the room you sleep in? Before my grandpa passed away, when I would spend the night with my grandparents I would sleep in the middle of both of them. My grandpa was on the right of me and my grandma was on the left of me. When my grandpa had passed away it felt very lonely with just me and my grandma. I was always scared that his spirit would return at night to sleep with us. Even after he passed I would still sleep in the middle and no one slept on my grandpas side of the bed. Also I felt as if I could feel him sleeping next to me. I would wake up screaming and crying! If not I just wouldn’t be able to sleep at all. I could swear I would hear noises but it was only the  branches hitting the bathroom window.

I do love him but thinking he still comes back when I’m asleep with my grandma seriously scares me.

Poem - Engagement

When she finally listened,

She felt the pounding in her chest,

Everyone looked at her eyes and saw them glisten,

When all along she thought this was a test,

As she saw him get down on one knee,

She felt her heart ache,

When he pulled out the diamond ring,

Ripples began in the lake,

And the bells from behind began to ding,

He asked her the question,

She said yes then jumped and kissed him,

He held her and said “Your Mine”

She replied with “I’ll always love you Tim”,

Right there and then they saw their future shine,

They loved forever loyal and real.

Love - I still care

I still care for you ever so deeply,

you will always have a part of me.

Even though we don’t have the title

I feel as if I’m yours,

but I know you’re no longer mine.

The hurt we went through,

will never compare to the Love.

I find myself dreaming of you,

and actually waking up to tears,

my heart aches knowing you’re with her.

I still wear your clothes that you didn’t take back,

just to make myself still feel you’re still near,

but I need reality to hit,

we are done we will never be.

I cry myself to sleep with all our memories,

I miss your kisses,

your hug and our long talks.

I don’t only miss you,

but I truly miss the “US”

that used to be.

My first love being with you,

I do not regret one second being called your girl,

Until I made the mistake to end us all.

With the words you said after

still burn in my heart.

I can not be mad for anything at all,

but I just wish you never said,

“I NEVER LOVED YOU!”

Actions hurt,

but your words hurt more.

Still through it all,

I know I loved you

and I know a part of me still does.

I fought for you,

can’t say I didn’t!

Baby I fought for you,

FOR OVER A YEAR!

You held everything against me,

never let my bad go.

You always focused on your goods,

and beat me down with my wrongs.

But your love taught me a Life Lesson,

one I’ll never forget.

I care for you,

even though you don’t notice me .

I STILL CARE FOR YOU!

Animal Poem - KonGrilla

It’s game time,

My heart is racing,

I feel the butterflies in my stomach.

I hear the whistle being blown,

And the beast within me is released.

I get such a serious face,

You can see the seriousness in my red eyes,

The hardworking sweat drip down my face,

You see my furrow between my two eyebrows.

My veins begin to show.

I run so fast,

My big nostrils widen and close with every breath.

I become stronger than I ever have felt before,

I feel my muscles growing,

I see the black fur covering my body.

My height begins to rise,

I grow from 5’4 to 6’11.

The piercing redness in my eyes begins to sting.

If anyone gets in my way,

I will crush them!

Mentally I prepare myself for the worst,

But I manage to pull through,

And play like the Gorilla I am.

When I get the ball down low,

I take a strong power dribble

And push on my weak opponent to create my space,

I turn to the basket,

And finish with a powerful lay-up!!

When I receive the ball on the wing,

I spot up and feel the kangaroo being released,

So I jump and release the ball

With the perfect shooting form and score!!

We rush down the court to play dominating defense.

I pound on my chest,

And roar out “DEFENSE”!

I feel my hands getting big,

And my feet getting quicker for defense,

Defense is the best release for my Gorilla!

The kangaroo releases

As my teammate shoots,

I trust them when they shoot

And I do believe in their shot,

But it’s always natural that not every athlete makes every shot.

So as they shoot and barely miss,

I jump up as high as I can,

With all the muscle in my huge brown thighs

And make sure no one is able to get around me.

I always out jump my opponents,

Me being so short doesn’t matter anymore,

The fact is I play with mad hops like a kangaroo.

Playing as these two animals combined

And the confidence I have gained,

Also with my trustworthy team,

We are just tooo beastly!